random thoughts of mine

so,first thing first.. world cup is almost coming to an end.actually not so much the real end but right nw, "knock-out" round begins. and england is no longer in the run of becoming the champion. well, i should say as expected! but still, after for so many years,nothing has changed. none! i still love david beckham more than anything and not to say his the best! i was going crazy,maniac,lunatic or whtever the word is, when,when,when.. the first half of the match was over. david beckham despite of not playing,he waited for all the players going into the dressing room and saying things to them,holding their shoulders and stuff.okay,one word: motivating them! he was there. he was really really there!until the last player on field was coming with him. isn't he's great? he sure is.in fact,he always do.. im honestly very disappointed not to see him play this year. he might not be the greatest footballer on earth,technically, but he always fight till the very end. even if his team doesnt lead the game,still he's on fire! and for tht,he's the greatest! i learn a lot from this man.. (y do i feel like crying nw??like seriously!funny,seyh.. =P)


apart from wc, my holiday is also coming to an end! NOOOOO!!! 2months feel like 2weeks. and yeah,i think i better start arranging things up by nw.. i hv not even pack my last-sem stuff yet.i am a freaking lazy creature born on earth. hahaha (evil laugh). i cant believe tht it is act over now.. where hv i been spending all my time? tht's wht ppl always say "time flies fast,when we're having so much fun". i cant agree more with this. it is always,always like tht! when everytime we're having fun,dup-dap-dup-dap,byebye happiness,byebye life of fairytale, byebye fun reality and heLLo tough reality,heLLo commitment, heLLo tonnes of works and not to forget smtimes we even hv to welcome "painful truth" to our life despite of not wanting it.

1) im having so much fun,this holiday,and like i've said 2months feel like 2weeks. y? coz i enjoy having fun and for tht reason time flies super fast!
2) im dont really like studying where i study right nw. oopppsssiii!!! did i just write tht one?yeess!i did. I DONT LIKE STUDYING WHERE I AM STUDYING RIGHT NOW.and tht's a statement ppl.haha..the "depression side" of me. =P. i've been studying there for baru 2years. and guess wht??it feels like FOREVER!!!! duhal baruk 2thn,rasa dh kdk 20 thn dah.. i've been studying in green road secondary school for 5 yrs and it never felt so long. i had a blasting time in grss. i just love being there.i even came to school in the evening to just play around.also coming to school on weekends to hang out! if u're a greenian,school is such a nice place to hang out! trust me.. owh,God knws how much i miss grss! insanely~~~i miss grss and greenians!!!
3)painful truth: the truth is tht there are ppl out there tht keep on talking bad things about you WALAUPUN they barely knw you.

"there's ppl talking

they talk about me

they knw my name

they think they knw everything

but they dont knw anything

about me..."

-hilary's song-

i wonder y?dont you ppl have life to live?? or tht's just how you live your life.. wht are you? the commentator of my life?who paid you to comment my life? how much do you earn commenting my life?thousands?millions?billions??? reality check~~~ L to the A to the M to the E. LAME! i never knw to whom im writing all these,coz i never knw whose the one starting this bad talking. but anyway, who ever you are,who ever you talk about,just cut this crap off,o'right? No point laa... pointless effort!

world cup fever begins

the thing tht everyone has been waiting for is finally here. the fever is all over the world. i usually will get so excited when the kick-off starts but this time im not so in the football mood. my superstar,my sweetest addiction,my inspirational obsession will not be playing. INJURY! tomorrow morning,around 2.00am england will fight against USA.and it's england's first match.well,USA's too. well,it's kinda obvious i think that england will have more chances of winnng the game but anything can hppn. like france. i never ever ever and thousands of ever at all expect tht it's gonna be a draw. but it was a draw. so? conclude it yourself. hopefully not the same thing goes to england. let me say something about taking home the cup. u knw,about whose winning this 2010 fifa world cup.. my love and support will always be with england but honestly, i dont think they'll take back the cup. why? well,i dont have to say why,coz the answer to the question "WHY" is so obvious. as for the ppl around me, most of them are saying "SPAIN" is the team!the one tht will win this fifa. and our menteri sukan is also supporting spain. do i think spain will win? NO. sorry spain. okay!tht's just wht i thought of. after all my thoughts are not tht important. it's not tht, when im saying they're not gonna win,then they will FOR SURE not winning it.. right? to end this post, i wanna say GOOD LUCK ENGLAND!I KNOW THEY'LL WIN THIS FIRST MATCH.AND AS FOR THIS WHOLE WC,MAY THE BEST TEAM BRINGS BACK THE CUP HOME!

this is wht happened

okay. few hours back, i was so not in a happy mood. all of a sudden!i somehow, felt sad?should i say sad?no,no,it's not being sad,i dont knw wht is tht feeling but it's just not a nice feeling.. i was feeling tht all the happiness tht im enjoying right now is slowly taken away from me. honestly, this is a situation where my brain told my heart tht sickening thing. and my heart was going down,down,down. i started to think about few things and also few ppl.well,obviously it's the ppl tht brightened my life.

1)holiday is almost over. the results are out,but i dont check mine yet coz i kinda knw wht's going on. one word. -b.a.d.- im gonna crazily miss my simplest hols routine.doing nothing from the moment i wake up till i go back to bed.

2)nuraini assan is no longer my jiran.she's moving to KL,and not coming back for quite a long time.im sure gonna miss her!-b.a.d.l.y.- plus after all we did.

3)antonia vera charles william is most probably leaving kuching too. this girl is spending her whole life in kuching, well at least when i started knwing her, and now,she's leaving. i can sense perbezaan already.mesti lain rasa mun ant xda kt kch klk. *sigh*. im gonna miss her "stress-for-no-reason" behaviour.especially when we're planning smthing.

4)nur liyana mohd and fazida sulaiman. they hv to go back when their hols are up. yana is going back on the 20th june. sucks! zieda pun knfem nak blt juak.

5)left just me and ownet in kuching. still,we're nt gonna be in the same room.adoohhh!!!

6)something really nice was happening to me like last few days for everyday and dush,now, no more.dammit!wonder if tht thing will ever come back?another *sigh*.

7)FIFA world cup. david beckham is not playing.im so not in the football mood now. football is no longer a football when my superstar is not in action. another *sigh**sigh* (making it double).

hypothesis: semakin my cuti wanna end,semakin my happiness kenak tarik.

next semester is gonna be a tough one for me..omg!the toughness tht im talking about doesnt include the hardness of things i gotta study.addoooyyaaiii...

okay,now the happy part..
while i was emosi, something tht i've never thought of cheer me up. n i terus lupa semua masalah.

u know u love me

i knw u care

shout whenever,and i'll be there

you r my love,you r my heart

and we will never ever ever be apart

.

.

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Thnks J!so much...

06.06.2010

06.06.2010. is full of love and happiness.

my morning with:

liyana, ownet, nuraini, antonia, zieda.. (names according to who i meet first)

like always,we sure will hv a loud start. poreting!! then, lunch. lunch is something different when it's with them. u start to not really care about food coz everything seems so nice and delicious! yummy! then, shopping! while waiting for antonia and zieda. 30 -40 minutes after tht, the 2 come. BOWLING!! the thing is tht, im just so sux in playing bowling but today, i beat them. hw's tht sounds like?..hahaha.. and yeah,i shud just type this down. okay, i dont have to mention about hw loud and havoc and chaotic and lunatic we are.. and for tht,we grab all the attention there. ppl in tht place gt hairan when looking at us coz we gt so extraordinary happy whenever the bola bowling masuk parit! "so-extraordinary-happy" means tht the feeling of happiness tht is so over the top. i mean it,ppl. WE SCREAM OUT LOUD, YUUUHHUUUUU!!!, PLUS DOING ALL THE GESTURES, PUTTING OUR HANDS UP IN THE AIR, LAUGH OUT LOUD.. while we're having so much fun,making noise,building our empire of idiocracy, i prasan gt few ppl are laughing together with us. despite of the ppl, having a look tht tells "why are they so excited when the bola masuk parit?",i knw they're having fun watching our behaviour tht obviously not a so-well-behaved. but we are the one tht create happiness and cerianess of the surrounding. hahaha.prasan me.. ownet is so excited and megah of having the best record with most numbers of bola masuk parit. she is now officially, the president of KELAB PARIT. when she says the word "parit,parit!!",which i refer as the kata2 semangat,the bola sure msuk parit one..

after bowling, we berbelah bhg weather to go karaoke,since we are all good singers, =P *wink**wink*, or playing snooker. karaoke is too expensive.like rm20 for 3persons,extra ppl,pay rm5 per head. so not worth it! so, we decide to play snooker. we never even hold the kayu before,but there is always a first time for everything.. first match. zieda vs nisa and ownet! nisa and ownet sounds like a superb combination. right?? lol! but the girl zieda beats us gila,gila,gila. we are like not her lwn at all. she masukkan all the balls and me and ownet masukkan one ball. great!wht a match! so, after tht, we have a tutorial session with zieda on hw to hit the ball rightly. while we are having the match, yana is being the commentator. nini and antonia are poreting! story with no ending. yana kdg2 join tht them.

after snooker, next destination,my house. the thing i love about these girls is tht they are making my house like their home. they are so comfortable, they knw exactly how to serve themselves, without me having to threat them like a guest. we lepak at my house for 2 hours i think. but the two hours just feel like 2 minutes. frankly! x rasa langsung.
laugh-talk-makan-minum. laugh-talk-makan-minum.laugh-talk-makan-minum. then, they continue their programme which i sadly hv to take myself out frm it.
*i bet they are having fun, a real loud one!*

then, i go for a dinner with my family. kenny rogers roaster chicken is always the best! we have a wonderful time eating together.. i dont really knw wht to write coz we dont do much, but it is just so fun.wonderful!

thank you,everyone!today is such a wonderful day.. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

ohmigod!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! ashton kutcher is so a hot creature. i went out for a movie with my girlfriends n we watched KILLERS. starring ashton kutcher.. again, OH MY GOD! tht guy is superb hot! he has this really absolutely fabulous abs, not to mention his cute face.. when my friends first asked me to join them watching this KILLERS,i've never thought tht im gonna fall for ashton this hard. i mean,i never knw tht ashton is tht HOT. really HOT. yeah, he's kinda cute,he's kinda good-looking and stuff, but this time it's a different side of him. cheewwaaahhh! over na!~

M.J.C.

i wanted to write about this right after it happens but tht time i was too emosi and i finally knw hw trauma feels like. this "peristiwa" i dont knw if it shud be called as manis or pahit coz it's not both. apart from me,there are 4 ppl involved.
1. antonia
2. nuraini
3. aidil
4. paul

this is how the story goes.....

INTRODUCTION: planning stressed us up!

antonia is so stressed up about arranging her schedule since she had so much things to do. no,no,no. it's not about TOO MUCH,act it's about TOO MANY THINGS AT THE SAME TIME. and worse, i felt the stress too. i dont knw how,i dont knw why,but im just feeling it.. when the 'S' thing was coming to both of us,things started to fall apart.wait,wait,wait.it's not really falling apart,but very cincai laa..then,we started to have a list of plans, from plan A all the way to plan Z. when there are too many PLANS,we both get confused! REALLY CONFUSED!!

changes from time to time.i just cant forget the most MEMORABLE chat and phone call tht we had.

THE CHAT:

ant: nisaaaa!!!
nisa: oi??
bla,bla,bla...
nisa: adoh,ne sbenarnya tok?mcm ne ya?adoh i confuse..
ant:bla,bla,bla..
nisa:bla,bla,bla..(menyampuk)
ant:nisa,u jgn tulis apa2.u tunggu i abis type lok then brk u type(dgn penuh emosi)..LOL
nisa: LOL.(ne x perey..)

THE PHONE CALL:
nisa: hello,ant!
ant: nisa. (all of a sudden) OKAY!

and right after she said the word OKAY we both laughed.coz when she said OK,i kinda hear the stress-feeling in her voice. so,after she explained hw our final plan should be.i gt my adrenaline pumping in me,when one of our rancangan is to go SHOPPING!!!! love it.love it.love it.

(the end of introduction)

THE NEXT MORNING: MEET AIDIL

antonia picked me up.she wanted to show me the way to nuraini's house.for some reasons,i have to knw where her house is located.it is somewhere in a place called tabuan melayu. i am obviously so not familiar with tht area,so i thought a paper and a pen will for sure do me a favour.im preparing to draw the map.things went on normally then.it felt such a relieved when finally things gt normal and most importantly,according to plan.

after nuraini's house,next destination=mjc.why mjc?

1. because nini (nuraini's nickname) supposed to meet paul.and paul lives somewhere near mjc.well,tht's wht antonia told me.

2. i supposed to meet aidil and aidil is currently studying there.

3.me and antonia wanted to buy something there.

we drove to mjc. i was starving so, we had our lunch at KFC. makan,makan,makan, talk, talk, talk,makan,makan,makan..then,nini was asking paul,where he is?thought of asking him to just meet us at KFC. paul replied saying tht he's been waiting for 15 or 20 minutes i cant remember! and we all were so shocked y he is so..,sorry but he's being stupid of not telling us tht he actually dh sampe!i rushly stuffed everything into my mouth and we walked fastly,almost running just to cari paul. it's mjc,there are lots of ppl there.and i dont even hv a clue on how the guy,paul looks like. i just "is tht paul","is tht paul","is tht paul"??? nini called paul,asking where he actually is.. paduhal nya dh pulang!!chicken!!!!!!!! then semua org emosi! nini was persuading paul to come back,not working! antonia did the same thing.again,not working! unexpectedly, when i talked to him,he wanted to meet us in mjc. problem 1=settle. tiba2,nini pulak yg dont wanna meet him.according to her,she dah feedup eh!nini said:tandah nya cya.boh jak la jmpa org kdk ya!sak nya! tht's problem no2 coz paul is already turning back to mjc. and wht's the point of turning back when nini did not wanna even see his face? belom settle problem no2,problem no3 muncul..adoh!!!kan we supposed to meet aidil?aidil xdpt ditemu. (ant: nisa,ambik u phone tok,call aidil!)and i took the phone and dial his number.and fyi,i never talked to him before.i never knw him before.now,i have to called and talked to him.yeah,talking to a stranger for the second time after talking to paul.

the conversation:

nisa:hello..

aidil: cne tok?? (he thought i was antonia)

nisa:ermmm,aidil nisa tok..

aidil:ermm,ok.cne tak org?

nisa:kmk org tgh mencari ktk. (coz it's mjc,all buildings look alike,and i dont knw hw to tell our location specifically)

aidil:nya lah kat cne??

nisa:dekat,dekat,dekat..(i still dont knw wht to say..)

aidil:aie..kmk nmpak ktk org!!!ktk nmpak kmk x??

nisa:ne?ne?ne?? hah!!! kmk nmpak ktk!!!ant,ant,ant!!berenti!

ant:ne?ne? (the car lurched forward coz she suddenly stopped the car!)

nisa:ya!ya!ya!

ant:ow,ok..jap,pusing lok.call aidil gik,sa...pdh nya jgn gi cne2.kta pusing.

nisa:ok.(so,i called him again)

so, finally i gt the meet aidil. problem3 solved!

(the end of meeting aidil)

STILL IN MJC: I AM THE FOCUS OF STARES AND WHISPERS!

i frgt to mentioned tht nini was crying.she was so pissed off with paul.she 500% did not wanna meet him.despite of me persuading her.settle masalah aidil but problem no2 still ada, remember! unexpectedly,she suddenly,get herself out of antonia's car after saying I DONT WANNA MEET HIM! this thing is never in my head.im not preparing for it.i got paniccckkked. people,knw wht i did? i just sit in the car,shouting, ah,ah,aaaa...!!!adoh!adoh!gne tok??and i keep on shouting plus i dont even move.except for doing a lil bit of hands gesture to show tht im freaking out! then antonia: tangkap!tangkap! i was still very blur:hah?hah? ant:tangkap!tangkap! nisa:hah?tangkap?cm ne? ant: lari kluar!tangkap nya!tangkap! the moment i faham antonia's instruction,i terus get myself out of the car,and chased after her.i was trying to tell her to go back to the car,pulling her,trying my very best to stop her,but i just cant. im not strong enough. but still im running with her.and at the same time talking to her.with a loud voice.tht time was a lunch break.so,there were humans everywhere.and all eyes on us! wht we're doing is so eye-catching!like something big was happening!!! it was exactly like wht you've seen in tv.drama melayu. where there was kejar-mengejar thing going on.. EXACTLY! after a while,i was able to calm her down. well,i thought so.tp hakikat,tht time she was too tired to continue walking.so,tht's y she's sitting down. we both were exhausted coz we've been pulling+pushing+running smpe 3 blocks. after a while, she suddenly mengganas semula.(hehe,see the words i used?). and

nisa: aiee!!ktk nak gi cne gik ya?

nini: kmk x mok jmpa paul!!!!!

nisa: xda kta jmpa paul.kta tunggu ant!!nak balit eh nak balit!!

she ran up something and i quickly realised it's someone's office..and fyi,this conversation was really loud!

nisa:ktk nak lari pg cne??

nini:aiiee!!??!!lari la..

nisa:atas ya office org.ne boleh kta skati lari.mati kta klk!

and then,she sat somewhere at a quite hidden place along the stairs.and while i was talking to her,hearing tht she's complaining of not wanting to meet paul,and i gt so hairan.

nisa:ne paul?ne??kta jmpa antonia bkn paul!!!

while i was talking there's a guy coming up the stairs..so,i was like

nisa:oww,so you're paul.no wonder la..ow,ok!tok la paul tek..

so i left the two of them..

( the end of this part)

THE LONG WAIT : ALONE.

like i've said, i left the two of them. i dont knw where antonia is.thought of calling her,but it seems like it was meant to be a disasterous day for me coz my phone xda credit. so,i keep on waiting. they really took time to talk. im waiting for antonia's call,waiting for her car to pass by and pick me up..but none!! none of the things i was hoping for terjadi. there's nothing i could do, except for keep on waiting. ALONE! when im alone,with tht unfamiliar environment plus ppl looking at me, thousands of things passing through my mind. wht if the weird guy kacau me?wht will i do?i say he's weird coz of his acts. he was singing loudly in front of a coffee shop,dancing using chairs, and he's just weird.and more things tht i dont wanna write here. finally,after the long wait,alone,they finished talking.nini was still so mad with paul but better. when i saw them,i asked nothing but "where is antonia?".so then,we walked together to ant's car.on our way to the car, people were all,i mean ALL, were staring and looking at us with a look.tht makes me realised hw we gt their attentions during the chasing scene. then only i realised,OMG!Did i just did tht? the looks tht were given to us some sort like telling me:"hey!u guys just gt a public humiliation!".and trust me,public humiliation is such a traumatic experience! when i gt to the car, i kinda tell myself not to care about those ppl and the looks coz they'll get over it. i felt so much better when i gt to see antonia and aidil faces..

IN THE CAR: FUNNY. WE LOL!!

when everyone was back in the car,things gt so much better.and funny stuff started to came out and we started to laughed.

1) paul was still working his butt off persuading nini. when,he was saying out his words, there was this very jiwang song played by aidil unpurposely..as if it suites the situation.and antonia quickly: tukar,tukar lagu ya!!! and then,tukar lagu.then another jiwang song lagik.finally! we tutup the radio coz lagu yg kluar semua parah2. when nini and paul was having their full of emotions talk,the 3 of us,tahan tetak..tp still juak terkeluar tetak ya.

2) antonia menghalau paul.like asking him to go to his own car.his own car was just besides ant's car. it's really funny on hw antonia said it out..

antonia: paul!keluar gik kau cnun!pg keta ko dik pun..penuh dh keta aku tok. (when there is act nobody in the car.it's just me and nini sitting on the back sit.cam ne kah pnde full indah?dah! perey gik skali..LOL)

3) and there was one time when nini marah paul and ..

nini: nangga ko!! lalu kotor sluar aku oleh kau!!!ya kotor.tangga ko kotor ya!

paul:aok,kotor..klk kta anta gi laundry..

then,all the 4 of us really really laughed out loud!

(IT'S NOT REALLY THE END OF THIS WHOLE mjc THING..I WANTED TO WRITE EVERY SINGLE THING THT HPPNED BUT TOO MUCH THINGS HAPPENING ON THT DAY)

FINALLY: SHREK FOREVER AFTER

memandangkan all of us was very emosi, we decided to cheer ourselves and go for a movie. we watched shrek.. we went shopping.buying a t-shirt at a very cheap price. RM13. surprised and shocked coz MNG was no longer there..i dont knw since when,coz it's been a long time tht i havent been there. we were trapped in a really bad traffic jam on our way sending nini back home. i gt to learn a cari-jodoh-song,which was so funny.we even played the "generasi hebat song" so tht we will becme more bersemangat after all those cabarab and dugaan.i dont see where's the rasional is but we just did tht. and antonia's car hit smthing on her way back sending me home coz the driver hilang focus as we talked about smthing! *wink**wink*

WOW! tht's a long post huh?well, kinda describe tht day we had,coz it was a long day.i swear. not every single detail is in coz there are too much things hppn on tht day.but this is hw basically or roughly hw our day went on... GIRLS ARE FULL OF DRAMA,HUH?