que sera sera,wht ever will be will be...

what ever will be,will be..seriously,i dont know wht's gonna happen to me?this time of my life,i'll called it as "masa HILANG".

1)i just hilang my pendrive.

2)hilang ingatan because i cant even remember what do i have in tht pendrive

3)hilang arah tuju.crazy!my tests are coming and im still doing nothing.never feel like to study.im having a test (last test for this subject) this saturday,and i have nt do anything about it yet.yeah,not yet.but i will,soon,may be tomorrow.well,i hope so.. =p

4)hilang otak, i think.. i dont know where my otak is right now,going for a vacation may be. last week,i was having my soil engineering test.there is this one question about strip foundation.and i happened to know tht there is a special formula for strip foundation right after i handed in the paper.and i start to ask myself.

"how come i never know that there is such formula,when the formula is in my notes given by my lecturer?"

now i figure out the answer: may be coz i hilang my kebolehan melihat dgn betol too.

5)hilang perasaan.despite of all these things,i still dont feel anything.except for yes,yes,yes!!three more weeks to go!then,4th sem is done!then holiday,the best part of all.nothing beats holiday,where you have nothing to do except for relaxing,and of course doing nothing!

well, i guess i gotta wake up and start working hard.no,no,no!work a bit.coz i dont like working.if i work hard,im gonna live a miserable life.and i dont want to!!!so work a bit,dont be too relax,but must relax,and dont take things for grunted.ok,wait.cancel the last one. "DONT TAKE THINGS FOR GRUNTED".that is totally not my thing.it's just my nature taking things for grunted.change?susah sikit lah.so,obviously not now.klk2 kit!!

conclusion:work a bit,and dont be too relax!

as life goes on...

as life goes on, people are also moving on with their lifes.some may choose the right way,and some will choose the wrong path. perhaps, not knowing that they are actually in a wrong way. as i get older, i learn lots and lots of new stuff.to be honest,cant really take everything.cause there are like so much of them.

number 1:the fact that people change
it is always good to change and be a better person.but what's up with the negative change?it hurts so much to see people that you know for quite a long time change into something that they are not.and we start to ask questions like "who are you?", "why are saying such stuff?", "who am i actually talking to?", "where's the person that i used to know?","why are you in all those things?" and millions and millions of other questions. unfortunately,sometimes we just cant find the answers. even worse, we dont even have the guts to ask the questions. i believe it's because we no longer know who are we talking to.and when this happens,it feels like everything is falling apart and sometimes you'll feel that you wanna pick up the pieces so badly.but you just cant.why?life says NO!God gives everyone a brain to think.when you're a grown up,you should be able to think yourself about anything.and if you cant figure out what to do,where to go,then ask.go to the right person.go to the wrong person,then you gotta wrong way to go.tht's what a brain should do.THINK! my friend told me that one of the reasons why people change is because they "baru keluar penjara @ sangkar".hopefully, u guys will understand what i mean.

number 2: more and more commitments day by day
last time, few years back,life is so much easier and of course happier. you would not feel much even if you're not doing your jobs or so called commitments. example,when a teacher gives you homework,then you dont do it,the teacher scolds you and that is how it ends.but now,things are different.it seems like you have to arrange your life (especially time) so tht you could fit everything in.plus the extremely hectic schedule tht we have to follow,no choice!the sad part is that we dont even have time to pamper ourself.the weird thing is that to have weird feeling like missing to do nothing so badly.something that we never thought we would miss.

number 3: real problem arises
nowadays,problems are way serious than how it used to be.it feels you with worries but there is nothing you can do about it, because:
no.1)you dont have the power
no.2)you're a nobody
no.3)you yourself dont even know wht's the real thing tht's happening?
despite of the no 1,2 and 3 it still makes you worry,but nothing you can do,but you're worry,but nothing you can do...it will be in the same cycle,until??we never know.hope there's a happy ending for this.

number 4:things do not always according to the plan
me and my besty are planning lots and lots of things for this coming holiday.and tht includes travelling and touring. it's been a long time tht we do not spend time quality time together. so,obviously, we're both are extra-ordinary looking forward to this vacation. it's a girls' vacation. "single ladies are ready to mingle" thing.wht can be better?everything is planned,from top all the way to the bottom.but then "dushdushdush",something happen.my besty cant make it cause she has this disease that needed her to be at home, for 2 months i guess.so, plan cancelled. my number 1 concern is her health,for her to recover soon.so,RECOVER SOON,DARL!!!but we never give up.we're planning something ahead.september or october!! conclusion:sometimes things just dont go according to the plan,and it's ok.plan something else.plan,plan,plan.dont get bored of planning.especially for things like this.till you get what you want.

number 5: judmental people,bothering my things
i meet a new kind of people,quite a lot of them.the thing about them is that they love talking about other people,judging people,without getting to know them first.there are too much of back-stabbing happening and it's hard to know who are actually on your side cause it seems like they act really nice in front of you.lain cerita with people who desperately wants respect but not knowing how to get it. susah wanna understand.so,best thing,dont care.let them continue their miserable life bothering,kepo2 about people and as for me;polah keja dik pun.banyak da jak brg nak dipolah.

number 6:the fact that i miss my girlfriends damn much!!!
we're all studying in different places.we have different schedule of holiday, so, dont really have the chance to hang out.really hang out.like zaman2 after spm.oh,God!!it was such a heaven.. i miss those gila,crazy,chaotic,havoc,maniac girls!!!!

number 7: thank you,family!!!
whatever it is,these people are my number 1.thank you for being in my life.

nothing.nothing.nothing.

i wanna do nothing so badly. tht's the only thing that i can type. despite of having thousands and thousands of words to say.most of them are complaints of course.about how extremely hectic life is, 24/7 is just nt enough, not even have time to pamper youself and bla,bla,bla.. may be coz im too exhausted, plus like i've said i wanna do nothing so badly. so, tata guys!!!

can't wait to get it done

lately,im spending most of my time doing "studying things".i hardly have time to even enjoy myself, to the fullest i mean.i did have fun doing nothing but i suppose not to do it coz i have like tonnes and tonnes of some more important things to do. i miss to do nothing so badly. i miss to think about nothing especially not to think about my schedule that is freakingly hectic. and most importantly,i cant wait to get everything done.i have like another 1 month plus to finish the 4th sem of my study but it feels like eternity!!!!may be because im like counting days,waiting for it to be over. tht's why it feels soooooo lama. school,school,school.how i miss school. GREEN ROAD SECONDARY SCHOOL, i miss you!!!!!!!!!! i was surrounded by best people on earth tht time.we had so much fun,no stress,gone crazy and wild,being stupid but still score good results.*wink*. the thing tht i miss the most is where people cares about nobody, except for themselves,not judging people without getting to know them first, and etc. mbak palak dirik pun bah.. now,it's a new environment (no tht new act!),i hardly suit myself even after 2 yrs. the "CULTURE" cant get to my head. i miss my green road,people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am a sweet bitch

i was taking fb quizzes (wait,is this the right spelling?).nway,who cares?as long as we knw wht it means,after all, this is not an english test.ok,sambung crita.i did 3 quizzes.and one of it, is very very true. "what kind of bitch are you?".and gt sweet bitch.haha. this is wht it says describing a sweet bitch.

"You are a sweet bitch.You dont like being mean until it affects you or something you believe in. You dont get into many fights,but when you do they are serious.You believe in standing up for yourself and others.People dont expect you to be a bitch cause you hide it so well."

this thing is freakingly true.like every single thing is about me.except for the part saying that im hiding my "bitch-side of me" so well.but i think,tht's true also.i just realised it today. so, fact of the day:I AM A SWEET BITCH ,people!!!