yesterday was a little bit different from normal

yesterday. i dont knw if it's supposed to be a happy day or is it the other way round.. i was having my first paper yesterday,soil engineering. The paper was okay.there was 2 questions i failed answering.but overall,it was OKAY. the thing is,i was tested with pelbagai halangan yesterday and even the night before. before the test,i was extremely, superbly lazy doing my revision.okay,this one is normal.i am always lazy.no doubt!! before going to bed (the night before my test), when i was wrapping up everything and preparing for a night time rest, i had my head terhantuk very very hardly on my friend's katil.wasnt my friend's fault,it's just her katil.sakit yg teramat sgt.seriously!!can u imagine,the katil is besi or something..aduish!!and plus,the sound wakes my roomates up.when i had tht thing kenak my head, i was saying

"Ya Allah, jangan lah semua ilmu yg diblaja aku ya ilang segal palak ku terhantuk kuat kedak tok.mudahan jak otak ku x bergegar.mudahan bnda ku blaja x ilang.ku nak test esok."

and tht night,i cannot sleep for no reason.im not thinking about the test at all.im not worried at all.but i was just not sleepy.finally, after pusing kanan,pusing kiri,i managed to sleep.walaupun i dont knw pukul brapa.

the next morning (the day of test),everything started at a very normal way.i woke up,took my bath, go for a breakfast,then to the exam hall. right before entering the hall,my stomach felt something.u knw,the pooping,pooping thing. oh,God. did i just wrote tht in my blog?but i seriously wanna write this thing in,coz this is my first time experiencing this thing.and it's kinda like a historical thing for me. lol!! ok,ok,smbg crita. with tht feeling on my stomach, i entered the hall.not to mentioned,with hopes tht "the feeling" will disappear. start,start jak polah test,bnda ya makin kuat.so i set my mind,i have to speed up doing the test. and i did!! i really,really,really speed up. i managed to finish answering the paper within less than 2 hours (almost 2hours).it's a 3-hour paper. but i did not check any of my answer. i just cannot stand!! one of my friend thought tht it was gila,but Tuhan jak tauk cam ne rasa molah test ya in tht situation. right after i finish answering the questions (all of it), i told myself:

"nisa,u have to stay in here just for a while.at least,press the calculator once again just to check,u might been pressing it wrongly".

then,i have a look at my calculator, i wanna press the calculator so badly, i wanna check my answers so badly, but instead of doing all tht, i raised up my hands, calling the invigilator to collect my paper.and im out of the hall. of course then,speeding up to "my destination".u know wht!! wht's on my mind??

1. i do not know wht will happen to the test.how the results gonna be like.just hoping that wht i did, even with no checking is right.
2. most people think, wht i did is GILA. but i do not hv any regrets on doing it, even if i do,like i can change anything.so,y regret?
3. hope tht paper will be fine.

third thing,after the terhantuk kepala and ehem2 thing..yesterday sahaja,i had a lunch (around 12.00) in SCR and around 3.00,i was at mcD.how great is tht?diet plan ruins!! but it was nice.regret?i wish i am but im not,coz it was too nice and not to say, DELICIOUS!

fourth thing. i receive one of the worst news in my life.i got sakit hati, geram and annoyed with him. like i've said in my facebook status:

"chances were given,but now you're too much. but do remember tht wht goes around comes around".

flashback about everything.how people take care of you.and this is wht everyone gets?lots of people are freakingly scared now,and it's all because of you.u spoil yourself, killing yourself slowly, may be because you dont wanna live this life anymore.but us!! we still wanna live this life. thousands or millions more things to do. wht u did this time is really really too much. it is up to the level tht how i wish you're not in this world. u make the life of the people i love in troubles. u've treated people tht has been really nice to you this bad?where is your heart? have you never love us?have you ever care about us? Ya Allah,berik lah pengajaran pake org mcm tok. and to all the people yg teraniaya, i will always stand by you through thick and thin.and doakan mudahan benda tok cepat selesai.my love will always be with you!!!