yesterday was a little bit different from normal

yesterday. i dont knw if it's supposed to be a happy day or is it the other way round.. i was having my first paper yesterday,soil engineering. The paper was okay.there was 2 questions i failed answering.but overall,it was OKAY. the thing is,i was tested with pelbagai halangan yesterday and even the night before. before the test,i was extremely, superbly lazy doing my revision.okay,this one is normal.i am always lazy.no doubt!! before going to bed (the night before my test), when i was wrapping up everything and preparing for a night time rest, i had my head terhantuk very very hardly on my friend's katil.wasnt my friend's fault,it's just her katil.sakit yg teramat sgt.seriously!!can u imagine,the katil is besi or something..aduish!!and plus,the sound wakes my roomates up.when i had tht thing kenak my head, i was saying

"Ya Allah, jangan lah semua ilmu yg diblaja aku ya ilang segal palak ku terhantuk kuat kedak tok.mudahan jak otak ku x bergegar.mudahan bnda ku blaja x ilang.ku nak test esok."

and tht night,i cannot sleep for no reason.im not thinking about the test at all.im not worried at all.but i was just not sleepy.finally, after pusing kanan,pusing kiri,i managed to sleep.walaupun i dont knw pukul brapa.

the next morning (the day of test),everything started at a very normal way.i woke up,took my bath, go for a breakfast,then to the exam hall. right before entering the hall,my stomach felt something.u knw,the pooping,pooping thing. oh,God. did i just wrote tht in my blog?but i seriously wanna write this thing in,coz this is my first time experiencing this thing.and it's kinda like a historical thing for me. lol!! ok,ok,smbg crita. with tht feeling on my stomach, i entered the hall.not to mentioned,with hopes tht "the feeling" will disappear. start,start jak polah test,bnda ya makin kuat.so i set my mind,i have to speed up doing the test. and i did!! i really,really,really speed up. i managed to finish answering the paper within less than 2 hours (almost 2hours).it's a 3-hour paper. but i did not check any of my answer. i just cannot stand!! one of my friend thought tht it was gila,but Tuhan jak tauk cam ne rasa molah test ya in tht situation. right after i finish answering the questions (all of it), i told myself:

"nisa,u have to stay in here just for a while.at least,press the calculator once again just to check,u might been pressing it wrongly".

then,i have a look at my calculator, i wanna press the calculator so badly, i wanna check my answers so badly, but instead of doing all tht, i raised up my hands, calling the invigilator to collect my paper.and im out of the hall. of course then,speeding up to "my destination".u know wht!! wht's on my mind??

1. i do not know wht will happen to the test.how the results gonna be like.just hoping that wht i did, even with no checking is right.
2. most people think, wht i did is GILA. but i do not hv any regrets on doing it, even if i do,like i can change anything.so,y regret?
3. hope tht paper will be fine.

third thing,after the terhantuk kepala and ehem2 thing..yesterday sahaja,i had a lunch (around 12.00) in SCR and around 3.00,i was at mcD.how great is tht?diet plan ruins!! but it was nice.regret?i wish i am but im not,coz it was too nice and not to say, DELICIOUS!

fourth thing. i receive one of the worst news in my life.i got sakit hati, geram and annoyed with him. like i've said in my facebook status:

"chances were given,but now you're too much. but do remember tht wht goes around comes around".

flashback about everything.how people take care of you.and this is wht everyone gets?lots of people are freakingly scared now,and it's all because of you.u spoil yourself, killing yourself slowly, may be because you dont wanna live this life anymore.but us!! we still wanna live this life. thousands or millions more things to do. wht u did this time is really really too much. it is up to the level tht how i wish you're not in this world. u make the life of the people i love in troubles. u've treated people tht has been really nice to you this bad?where is your heart? have you never love us?have you ever care about us? Ya Allah,berik lah pengajaran pake org mcm tok. and to all the people yg teraniaya, i will always stand by you through thick and thin.and doakan mudahan benda tok cepat selesai.my love will always be with you!!!

4 down,5 to go

5 more tests to go then im done with the 4th sem. all reports are done. all assignments are done. urusan2 kolej all done.
i always say this, and im gonna say it again. CANT WAIT FOR THE 2MONTHS HOLIDAY.THE PARADISE FEELING OF DOING NOTHING FOR 2MONTHS.I WANNA HANG OUT WITH MY PEOPLE,HOPE THAT THEY WILL BE HERE.I WANNA BE STUPID WITH THEM,AFTER BEING SMART FOR SO LONG. I WANNA DO CRAZY AND RECKLESS THINGS WITH THEM, AFTER BEING CAREFUL FOR SO LONG. I WANNA LAUGH TILL PEOPLE ASK US TO SHUT UP. I WANNA GO OUT FOR MOVIES TILL I KNOW EVERY SINGLE MOVIE AIRED ON EARTH. I WANNA DO NOTHING SO BADLY. I WANNA HAVE A LONG NAP WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY OR IRRESPONSIBLE. I WANNA SIT IN FRONT OF THE TV 24/7. I WANNA DO LOTS AND LOTS MORE THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It sounds like i never hv any hols in my whole life. honestly,nisa affandy,this post is so so so much over-reacting.

btw,earlier tonight,i suddenly hv the feeling to watch "a walk to remember".but nw,im like menguap non-stop.so,plan cancel...bed,here i come.
ok,tata!!!

p/s: most part of this post is meaningless except for the part say tht im done with 4tests and another 4 to go.other than tht,MEANINGLESS!

pekak?

am i?i hv a hearing problem.but no worries.belum sampai ke tahap pekak yet.still can hear,just not tht clear. it seems like my left ear ada x betol sikit.i told my mum,dad and brother about this hearing thing.and they laughed!!!they thought i was joking and over-reacting and stuff like tht.haiyoooo!!! this ppl! planning of going to clinic tomorrow.and my dad ajak me go jogging.hahahahahahah.i'll jog.but on bed! =P

good evening sleep

i had a real good sleep yesterday evening. my roomates were not in the room. it was quiet and nobody to talk to,so i fell asleep easily. Ow,yeah.. yesterday i was having my soil engineering test. Like always, i studied at the very last minutes. and because of there are other things to do, i could not finish studying everything on the night. so, i decided to wake up early morning to complete things tht i hv to.at least READ the things(last chapter tht's in the test). and tht morning, i managed to get up from bed as early as 6 o'clock!! this happens so seldom. once in a blue moon, people. coz i am one of the hardest people to BANGUN PAGI. here,i wanna congrats myself for tht achievement of bangun awal pagi! it is so a big achievement!! Alhamdulillah, i "berjaya" again menghabiskn things tht i have to read. however!!!!, the test didn't go quite well for me this time. since i just read, i cant memorise all the formula.once there's no correct formula, there's no correct answers. dah lah kalau the upper part of the question, i answered wrongly, the bawah2 part konfem salah. and my calculations were like out of the circle of logicness. why? coz when calculating factor of safety(FOS), i've a gotten a negative answer.so,i was perhaps calculating for factor of dangerousity(which is not in the syllabus). My graph was a nightmare.HORRIBLE,TERRIBLE,whtever words tht hv the same meaning..the instruction was "draw a curve graph or anything like tht".But curve!! stupid me just read half of the question and i idiotically make the graph a linear one.Theory part.i hentam only.using my own theory. in the test, everything was falling apart. conclusion: IM DEAD!

but after im done with the test, i terus lupa about it and enjoy the free moment tht i have,since it was just for a while.but the good evening sleep was so heaven and paradise!!! it's been a long time tht i dont hv such a good evening sleep. and finally i gt it on tht day!!

wonder wht will happen to my soil test??hopefully i pass the test.honestly,im not even sure about passing tht test,coz u knw,so much mistakes.. how i wish all the formula are provided. it will be wayyyyy much much much better!
anyway,im "hoping" for the best!at least pass me,please....

home!

im home.i believe tht next week is going to be an OK week for me.coz according to my schedule (up till today at least),there's only one test and a presentation to be done.im not extremely happy with this, but i am really grateful.the reason why im not extremely happy is because of i just miss a vacation trip with 2 cousins and an aunt of mine. we supposed to go to damai puri but i could not make it coz i hv to be in campus on friday and sunday, which are on the public holiday,to settle few things.one of it is doing TEST on holiday.wow!!isn't life wonderful?? im feeling kinda frustrated coz i could not join them going to tepi pantai, running along the beach, listening to the sound of waves and all the calming things that can be done there. u know hw it feels like when you have to say no to something that you really need?OMG! i need holiday so badly.better, it's away from the city and near the beach. damai puri is the best place. i cnnt go.
=(. *sigh*

but im really grateful to have "not-so-packed" schedule for next week.and im coming back to my campus on monday.coz my mum is having her holiday..yeay!!